Who really gets "a clean slate?"

Are you supposed to be well-behaved and do your work at school growing up or know you want to be a violinist already?

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June 11, 2015

"Stop ‘Defending’ Music Education"

"I have played in concert bands, a couple of jazz bands, and pit orchestras; I have directed church choirs and community musical theater. ... come together and connect to each other."

That sounds almost exactly like me.   I know!  It makes you the ultimate star in worth.

From there, you can chose your favorite musical instrument and go on to achieve musically and "artistically."  I made the mistake of going on a sabbatical for too long, and some of it's changed, for better and worse.  I pulled thru those times singing karaoke on my own most all those years, save for at first when I lost my voice for not using it.  My goal is to be a classical musician in a travelling orchestra and to live in Germany.  I like violin, so that's what I'm doing, tho I didn't do it much with private lessons until the month before I turned 30.

Sabbatical

If people think I'm not doing what I like, then I don't know why I'm doing nothing.

Now's my chance.

I can focus on violin practicing and actually do it.

Education

I used to think Music Education was superior to Education, in some ways, and a part of it.  It's a magical land.

My Fame

I feel like I'm the Brady Bunch.

People

Do people matter?

"The Reason for the Season"

Don't people sometimes make it a point to talk to each other to interact on the joys of the philosophies in life?

Any Attention?

I run into my dad a lot.  It's awkward because I didn't grow up to do that.

Life is hard.

Sometimes, I'm not that smart to say things and get by without being attacked by people who know me, enraged by what I say that speaks the truth.  Sometimes, I can.

Free!

Why am I trapped and I wake up and see other people who are free?  I'm glad they are free, but what about me?

Extracting Demons in Life

I have the best moral judgment of myself.

I can't seem to get by perfectly, but I do the right thing.  People just like to see me as sarcastic.

Like, what could possibly be wrong or too interesting about this post?

Special Rules?

I am allowed to talk about whatever comes my way and whatever I want.

Rules are a fragile thing not to be tampered with.  Give and take.

An Example of Having to Tolerate Certain People

Why can some people say no to someone they don't want to mess with them but others are forced into it if they know me?

Being Good

I don't need people telling me what to post.

I have the same rules as everyone else.

Blaming Others

People complain I didn't have problems they did, but they are having better social lives, now, for how they act.

Getting Past 1st Base

People wait with me and make things not okay around others, but once I'm down other people are up.  I think that's just an indifferent, obviously stressful fact.

"Living in Style"

How can being deficient in style be over and above others with style itself?

I know some people fixate on it in different ways.  Like, the difference between my dad and his 2 younger sisters.  I remember my dad liked "living in style."  He's not a girl, tho, and his sisters are very stylish in life in different ways.

I just can't win.

I feel awkward when people think I should be in trouble for private thoughts, and it catches on and sometimes I physically react or am mad in private physically but don't throw and break things.

Like My Dad

I noticed some younger people copy or confide in my dad, and black people are like my dad, in a more mature way as a person than most people who copy him, like they did it themselves already.

Spick and Span

Someone is mad my room is clean and supposedly I can live successfully now.