Friday, March 30, 2018
Pathetic
I don't want people to dig into my dad to find me, like they're better. I am a good person. People give me problems.
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I keep being teased at others having the time of their lives, when I'm surrounded by problems against me.
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It seems some people are considered glorified when they say something is wrong, but when I say something smart people think I'm bad, maybe to that person, like a button on a program. Things don't go well, neither.
Suffering Prejudice and Others's Pride
People ruined my life and acted like I have a problem, like I keep getting rubbed in when convenient that I'm unattractive and ugly and an unpleasant person in what I do and decide and come across as. They just don't give me the time of day but to make fun of me or give me bad news with a smile. They single me out as bad.
I know some people think that if you're not skinny that you're just stupid, unless they look like your mother.
I feel people are personally prejudiced against me and like to ruin older people I like/know.
They often pretend I am a bad person, too.
People say because people used to like me and be nice to me and even do things for me that I'm just a bad person and not the one who complimented myself and did nice things. So, they're saying I'm worthless. They themselves probably don't do things for anyone unless to attract a date or spouse.
They keep thinking that that did it and that I believe them.
They were told bad things about me and were threatened to do this, but maybe not everyone does it. So, they must have drawn different conclusions.
No one seems to care about what I do, and my personal life gets messed up. It's boring, in that way.
They think they have bait on me because I met people I liked and they're always messing with those relationships, saying if I am upset they are mean to me I am bad. If I get upset physically in any way and even in private, they threaten my current or future relationships. People like to edge me on, too, and make it look worse. They are playing around with me, worsening my relationships like I won't have them good anymore and I often suffer things to do with it being threatened, like I need it and from my parents who I live with.
I am a bit fed up about my personal life, but I also wanted to highlight for interest's sake how everyone treats me and others.
I see other people where I live get away with living their lives.
It's important that so many people keep treating me like I'm nothing when, it seems in some ways, when it gets in my personal life and I sometimes get bothered about it if I accidentally think of a bad word or something. I get that I'm nothing sometimes and can't insist some people talk to me. So, I'm posting about it, here.
Do you think I am being trapped from having a good life like I earned before?
So, I guess I seem to be being confrontational about all the people who think I'm nothing because I'm mixed race.
I know some people think that if you're not skinny that you're just stupid, unless they look like your mother.
I feel people are personally prejudiced against me and like to ruin older people I like/know.
They often pretend I am a bad person, too.
People say because people used to like me and be nice to me and even do things for me that I'm just a bad person and not the one who complimented myself and did nice things. So, they're saying I'm worthless. They themselves probably don't do things for anyone unless to attract a date or spouse.
They keep thinking that that did it and that I believe them.
They were told bad things about me and were threatened to do this, but maybe not everyone does it. So, they must have drawn different conclusions.
No one seems to care about what I do, and my personal life gets messed up. It's boring, in that way.
They think they have bait on me because I met people I liked and they're always messing with those relationships, saying if I am upset they are mean to me I am bad. If I get upset physically in any way and even in private, they threaten my current or future relationships. People like to edge me on, too, and make it look worse. They are playing around with me, worsening my relationships like I won't have them good anymore and I often suffer things to do with it being threatened, like I need it and from my parents who I live with.
I am a bit fed up about my personal life, but I also wanted to highlight for interest's sake how everyone treats me and others.
I see other people where I live get away with living their lives.
It's important that so many people keep treating me like I'm nothing when, it seems in some ways, when it gets in my personal life and I sometimes get bothered about it if I accidentally think of a bad word or something. I get that I'm nothing sometimes and can't insist some people talk to me. So, I'm posting about it, here.
Do you think I am being trapped from having a good life like I earned before?
So, I guess I seem to be being confrontational about all the people who think I'm nothing because I'm mixed race.
"Say what?"
So Up North in the US you get second chances if you fix yourself, but in Europe and Down South if you mess up once you're out but bad people are still in.
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I was looking up music conservatories in Germany looking for ones that accommodated English speakers if possible.
@ Wikipedia:
"Notable teachers and students"
@ Wikipedia:
"Notable teachers and students"
Good Ole Orlando
There's always something out there to do as a community it seems: church, the gym, ... more than one community theater with a full year of performances, the community and other major local colleges all having the arts...
I came out.
I wished my violin teacher a good Easter. I said I wasn't going to church anymore because I wanted to focus on violin and taking the bus to church was becoming a center of my attention and I could not have it that way. So, I'm just doing things that benefit violin, which include enough rest and unwinding.
The Life of a Film Star
They are probably fighting off something like depression or suicidal type emotions.
The Life of an Adult
They're preoccupied, as well. If they don't have kids, they're going nuts over their health.
The Life of a Kid
They're at home with their parents, or they're at band practice for hours a day or week, competition team in dance, dance team and cheerleading...
I keep coming to a blank, but I'm making it. My sleep schedule is a bit off.
At least, I'll probably be in school next year, at a more well-behaved I think community college. I aim to do music. I am not really planning on taking the general studies, unless I have to in the end.
I keep coming to a blank, but I'm making it. My sleep schedule is a bit off.
At least, I'll probably be in school next year, at a more well-behaved I think community college. I aim to do music. I am not really planning on taking the general studies, unless I have to in the end.
England
Johnny Depp and Tim Burton catered to England. Johnny Depp seems well known in France, too, because his longest girlfriend was French.
Question
Do you know what to do after you see the external stimuli and go thru time, or do you get to some work right away?
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Very good! The concertmaster is cute! I've seen her a lot. I follow the Freiburger Barockorchester online and will see them live for the first time the day before my birthday. I was in church choir mostly age 8-18. It must be fun working with them. When I was in college, I remember the orchestra only went thru the music once to accompany us in choir. It was "the LPO" which I admired and saw once a year with a concert pianist featured. I got to be a piano major at Loyola University New Orleans for a year, when I was 18. Anyway, I switched to band the 2nd semester, which I'd done before, on glockenspiel. I am not sure, but I believe you have worked with the FBO before. Aren't they cute? The founder is very admirable, as well. I am taking violin now to replace the piano, but tho I haven't played much since 2005 can still do it. I loved accompanying. I want to do violin now so I can be in an orchestra and am learning German and hope I am accepted. One violin teacher said I was the best sight reader she ever saw. In certain easier keys with normal melodies, I can usually play thru. You're a choir, so I wonder how advanced the music gets in a real choir. It sure is fun, tho, to be a singer. I just am drawn to playing with music. I wanted to play violin when I was 6 and heard of it but forgot again to ask. My schools only had bands. Well, thanks so much for posting this and nice to meet you.
Very good! The concertmaster is cute! I've seen her a lot. I follow the Freiburger Barockorchester online and will see them live for the first time the day before my birthday. I was in church choir mostly age 8-18. It must be fun working with them. When I was in college, I remember the orchestra only went thru the music once to accompany us in choir. It was "the LPO" which I admired and saw once a year with a concert pianist featured. I got to be a piano major at Loyola University New Orleans for a year, when I was 18. Anyway, I switched to band the 2nd semester, which I'd done before, on glockenspiel. I am not sure, but I believe you have worked with the FBO before. Aren't they cute? The founder is very admirable, as well. I am taking violin now to replace the piano, but tho I haven't played much since 2005 can still do it. I loved accompanying. I want to do violin now so I can be in an orchestra and am learning German and hope I am accepted. One violin teacher said I was the best sight reader she ever saw. In certain easier keys with normal melodies, I can usually play thru. You're a choir, so I wonder how advanced the music gets in a real choir. It sure is fun, tho, to be a singer. I just am drawn to playing with music. I wanted to play violin when I was 6 and heard of it but forgot again to ask. My schools only had bands. Well, thanks so much for posting this and nice to meet you.
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