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Too Much Drama, in Ways?
It seems like there's always significant drama, when I wasn't sure I was supposed to post about it. Like, I thought things were going well in the world and things in ways, but I just get drama.
What's the problem?
Are "better" people mean? because they want to tell you there's "something about you" that's not "good enough" for anything?
Some Cases
So, did people "sign on" to my life to tell me I'm bad, and I can't be who I want?
I don't disrespect accomplished people. I wonder what my parents did to me.
I don't disrespect accomplished people. I wonder what my parents did to me.
Mad
Why are people discouraging me in music like I can't do it anymore?
People made me mad thru media and I hit my wall and table, and it may have damaged my nerves. No one told me that would happen, tho I had a funny feeling.
People made me mad thru media and I hit my wall and table, and it may have damaged my nerves. No one told me that would happen, tho I had a funny feeling.
Not Being "Good"
Just because someone else is good does not mean I'm not and shouldn't worry about this.
Switching Things Around
Does it work out between Late Boomers and other Late Boomers or with Generation YZ ... to both be attractive and wanna be with each other? Why is it like they're taking turns and just having Generation X make themselves not as young seeming so they can seem like they need people?
Bossed Around to Do Stuff
I feel like a lot of people are bossing me around like they're better like I need to understand that I don't deserve to know an older lady I like suddenly, like it was what she wanted tho I didn't know.
Bombarded with Bossiness
I can't see how so many people think they can talk over me, like they comfort me.
Confused
People monitoring me in private are testing me, but if I think about it they say I'm bad. I'm not used to this, and I'm not a bad person.
Tuesday, April 3, 2018
Question?
Do you believe that people care about me when they question the reasons I won awards in academics and other things?
So, everyone else is legitimate in their own right?
Question the award, not me, maybe.
So, everyone else is legitimate in their own right?
Question the award, not me, maybe.
Why am I considered a socially spamming problem?
Like, people think I'm naturally morally counted out, without any thought applied.
"Times Change," People Don't
Young adults today are stubborn, whereas they once were all over MySpace and Pirates of the Caribbean.
What to Do
Being upset is bad, so I don't know how to deal with what I have left, the people who ruined my life and soul for eternity. It seems what you do on this earth supposedly determines what happens for the rest of eternity; maybe not.
Say wha? (Say what?)
Did you know I have to fight off rejection to be cool like Late Boomers, whereas even younger people don't?
Question
Did you know I didn't used to live in the risk that an older lady I like would be inappropriately stimulated?
Orlando
I used to be liked and was happy in that way, but now people are acting like I'm a villain, just because I posted that Orlando exploited and inappropriately stimulated an older lady I like.
Missing Information
People like to flirt about new people I meet, too, like they don't want me to talk to other people.
Immaturity or Edging Me On Like a Game
I'm having problems because a favorite relationship I have with an older lady has not exactly taken off and is not that big, in ways. Other people between our ages hit it off faster and then there's not as much left. I'm in legitimate dilemma of them acting like I can't have a relationship with the older lady where they decide and like I'd wanna be trapped by others then instead or something, which otherwise would not be the case.
People are so gay; they act like some of them should be all you have; but we don't seem to get into much nor that deep; and so we don't talk much I mean anyway and it doesn't work out. A trick again!
Anyway, so, I have a relationship, and people keep trying to mess her up mentally and emotionally, too, like I said. I mean, I was talking more before this, in a certain way. This is insane. In some way, I bet that the relationship meant for this to happen like fate. I can't worry about that.
I guess what makes it a point to bring up is how strangely common and regular this is.
People are so gay; they act like some of them should be all you have; but we don't seem to get into much nor that deep; and so we don't talk much I mean anyway and it doesn't work out. A trick again!
Anyway, so, I have a relationship, and people keep trying to mess her up mentally and emotionally, too, like I said. I mean, I was talking more before this, in a certain way. This is insane. In some way, I bet that the relationship meant for this to happen like fate. I can't worry about that.
I guess what makes it a point to bring up is how strangely common and regular this is.
No Such Thing as "Friends"
People act autistic about me being able to communicate with people. It's going around, like about that I have a favorite relationship with an older lady, and so they exploit and inappropriately stimulate her.
I was a little disappointed when the people monitoring me in private informed me that because I'm humane and talk to different people without feeling like it doesn't matter or something ... that I'm not talking to someone else. Orlando is getting all riled up, now, since they are always thinking about the other relationship I have, like it's their business to do this to people tho they are only doing that to me, messing with someone I was supposed to talk to so they "won't be the same" and it's like I have something to do with Orlando forever.
Anyway, what is anyone's problem with me? I'm sick of people suggesting I not talk to someone, and if I talk to someone else they get all excited like I threw the other relationship out the window.
What's with people being married 50 years and having kids, then? Does it mean you're gay if that's not all you do?
I was a little disappointed when the people monitoring me in private informed me that because I'm humane and talk to different people without feeling like it doesn't matter or something ... that I'm not talking to someone else. Orlando is getting all riled up, now, since they are always thinking about the other relationship I have, like it's their business to do this to people tho they are only doing that to me, messing with someone I was supposed to talk to so they "won't be the same" and it's like I have something to do with Orlando forever.
Anyway, what is anyone's problem with me? I'm sick of people suggesting I not talk to someone, and if I talk to someone else they get all excited like I threw the other relationship out the window.
What's with people being married 50 years and having kids, then? Does it mean you're gay if that's not all you do?
But you did have it planned all along...
...why am I in trouble for someone older than me who I like getting exploited and inappropriately stimulated, when everyone else did the wrong thing?
It would be okay if that was what was wanted by the person herself or if anyone could make such decisions for others.
It would be okay if that was what was wanted by the person herself or if anyone could make such decisions for others.
Monday, April 2, 2018
1992/1993/1994 - When Time and Hollywood Stood Still
You knew you had something good in the kids then, who were born around 1983-1985.
Community College
I signed up for Music Appreciation Monday-Thursday and for a nutrition class that is only offered online, for the summer.
Orlando & Community College
Too much of this place just wants to do whatever hurts me in sneaky ways thy find successful and an accomplishment.
My life should change soon. I hope to take Music Appreciation at a community college in the summer and major in music in the fall, on violin, which they said they even take beginners. I am looking forward to being good at music in the Music Appreciation.
In a Blah Mood
Do most people hate what they eat?
I just have to finish up some things so I can get something else.
I just have to finish up some things so I can get something else.
Racist or Not Racist, That Is the Question
So, my dad and grandma aren't racist.
My dad seems to see me as different in minute sorta ways.
My grandma can't seem to grasp the idea it's okay I exist, in some ways.
My dad seems to see me as different in minute sorta ways.
My grandma can't seem to grasp the idea it's okay I exist, in some ways.
What do you think I am?
People keep acting like they're better and startle me when I'm happy going about my business.
Scapegoat
People I know and some strangers are conceited and out-of-place, around me, think I don't care and their life is unfair and see me singled out from others as a target and place to take out their anger on.
Orlando
Orlando ruined it for me.
Supposedly, a singing class teacher I had was monitoring me in private, and it turned into something bigger.
We ended up leaving New Orleans and moving to Orlando, and I got torn apart and beaten up.
I'm worried I cannot stop this no matter where I go.
Supposedly, a singing class teacher I had was monitoring me in private, and it turned into something bigger.
We ended up leaving New Orleans and moving to Orlando, and I got torn apart and beaten up.
I'm worried I cannot stop this no matter where I go.
What all is the matter?
Howcome all of a sudden, people turn me down? I had a hard time in my life, and then people stopped liking me and it got worse. I thought I could get better. I feel hurt by some people.
People won't stop not accepting me because of how I am in relation to my parents, and it's a lie, I think, tho they keep giving me the feedback. It's one of those things you develop and learn. It's sensitive. I'm probably waiting for my turn to do something again. I know I am capable of doing things.
Disgrace-ness Development
Since when am I a disgrace? It looks bad like people want to do away with me. People don't know about the real me.
Secret Message Board - post by me
...who appears thru this video is overrated? If you want to skip to her talking, then go to 4:02.
I posted nice things about her online and other things to the orchestra and have been blocked by them for no reason and had to get a new account just to follow and not talk much at all. They could have just told me. I know no one really hangs around there online, but they refused to have a conversation with me, like there's something wrong with me.
The Germans are interesting and remind me of an English girl poster on here. They seem to have it all, like they don't have to be nice to you and can still get what they want.
Also, people are secretly accusing me of wishing to meet people in the classical music field because it's my major in college and has been since the beginning mostly, tho I'm on a long sabbatical. My dad has gotten himself involved in private and everything. That doesn't make me feel good. Same with his older younger sister in strange ways. I might have had to go with the flow, but it is what it is. I better spill the beans and let you know they probably came in contact with people I find online or in real life. It's like it's ruined for me.
Back to the German lady. She is the one with brown hair in this video that comes up first for maybe Bach's most famous/pretty song, 2014. Someone posted it maybe in 2007 or something, tho, too.
It seems like if one person talks to her, everyone gets even more interested, or maybe she's due to be the next Yo Yo Ma since violin is what she does, or maybe she'd be a good film star in the US?
People need to be more Christian in their take on her because, sad to say, they probably aren't likable how they are. It's kinda disturbed me, and I didn't know she liked it. It might even have caused her to feel bad, if that's possible cuz it might be hard to be treated a certain way.
Anyway, what do you all think of the German lady, Petra Müllejans?
I posted nice things about her online and other things to the orchestra and have been blocked by them for no reason and had to get a new account just to follow and not talk much at all. They could have just told me. I know no one really hangs around there online, but they refused to have a conversation with me, like there's something wrong with me.
The Germans are interesting and remind me of an English girl poster on here. They seem to have it all, like they don't have to be nice to you and can still get what they want.
Also, people are secretly accusing me of wishing to meet people in the classical music field because it's my major in college and has been since the beginning mostly, tho I'm on a long sabbatical. My dad has gotten himself involved in private and everything. That doesn't make me feel good. Same with his older younger sister in strange ways. I might have had to go with the flow, but it is what it is. I better spill the beans and let you know they probably came in contact with people I find online or in real life. It's like it's ruined for me.
Back to the German lady. She is the one with brown hair in this video that comes up first for maybe Bach's most famous/pretty song, 2014. Someone posted it maybe in 2007 or something, tho, too.
It seems like if one person talks to her, everyone gets even more interested, or maybe she's due to be the next Yo Yo Ma since violin is what she does, or maybe she'd be a good film star in the US?
People need to be more Christian in their take on her because, sad to say, they probably aren't likable how they are. It's kinda disturbed me, and I didn't know she liked it. It might even have caused her to feel bad, if that's possible cuz it might be hard to be treated a certain way.
Anyway, what do you all think of the German lady, Petra Müllejans?
Dinosaurs
I think people are setting me up pretending to like only me, like everyone else has a problem, because I really was attracted to them, like younger girls. I know. They need to stop being so picky about opportunities to stay good and get better, like being worth to do it. People who aren't pretty like dolls probably all questioned them and attacked because they were jealous. It's a mystery no one knows, like why the dinosaurs all died out.
Trying to Solve My Mystery in a Social Jail
People think I have to want to be a certain way, a way that is not well-accepted socially.
It seems a little funny because I kinda made myself to be the best of both my parents. I'm not happy to know if I messed up. Some things were out of my control, so maybe it has a domino effect, like staying up late to do homework made me look shorter than I wanted.
I don't really barge in on other people, but I feel people are telling me I do. When I meet someone, it's already over. People around me act like they don't know how I started to get some kind of attention from anyone, to begin with, but they already want to rat me out, like there's some obvious reason. It's very silly and superstitious and criminal, extreme social mistreatment in sneaky ways.
So, what is wrong with what I am like when you come to know what my parents are like, in some ways? I don't think I'm often that violent, tho I'm not used to people giving me attention and going thru with telling me they think I did something wrong in getting attention. Why can't I get by sometimes? I mean, if someone wants to communicate with me, it doesn't mean I did something wrong. It also doesn't mean I don't want to communicate with anyone at all and like to communicate on what I like, which is disagreeable to some people.
I wonder if people dislike me because I am different form them in supposedly important ways and aren't interested cuz "there's nothing in it."
I figured out that it's about people who are younger than me with younger dads. People who are attractive participate in their life like they are really living life out with them. With me, it's about telling me I'm right that I should do what I'm supposed to but I'm bad because they don't want to admit I'm attractive and they make me feel like my soul is sucked out. Life is not all that romantic after all, filled with limitations and being tracked and mistreated. I thought life became about greater things for me. I'm me. I liked art a lot since I was 2 or 3, so I must like attractive things! I'm not some mole in a hole socially.
It seems a little funny because I kinda made myself to be the best of both my parents. I'm not happy to know if I messed up. Some things were out of my control, so maybe it has a domino effect, like staying up late to do homework made me look shorter than I wanted.
I don't really barge in on other people, but I feel people are telling me I do. When I meet someone, it's already over. People around me act like they don't know how I started to get some kind of attention from anyone, to begin with, but they already want to rat me out, like there's some obvious reason. It's very silly and superstitious and criminal, extreme social mistreatment in sneaky ways.
So, what is wrong with what I am like when you come to know what my parents are like, in some ways? I don't think I'm often that violent, tho I'm not used to people giving me attention and going thru with telling me they think I did something wrong in getting attention. Why can't I get by sometimes? I mean, if someone wants to communicate with me, it doesn't mean I did something wrong. It also doesn't mean I don't want to communicate with anyone at all and like to communicate on what I like, which is disagreeable to some people.
I wonder if people dislike me because I am different form them in supposedly important ways and aren't interested cuz "there's nothing in it."
I figured out that it's about people who are younger than me with younger dads. People who are attractive participate in their life like they are really living life out with them. With me, it's about telling me I'm right that I should do what I'm supposed to but I'm bad because they don't want to admit I'm attractive and they make me feel like my soul is sucked out. Life is not all that romantic after all, filled with limitations and being tracked and mistreated. I thought life became about greater things for me. I'm me. I liked art a lot since I was 2 or 3, so I must like attractive things! I'm not some mole in a hole socially.
"Mike TV"
I guess people born after Late Boom will be like little Mike TV, too small to feel anything or too small of a heart. It's supposedly the one big problem.
Getting Strong Attention
What if some people, like kids, feel attention more, in some natural way that even prejudiced people care about? Or is it just more sex? I wonder what happened to people my age, now, because they supposedly excelled while I somewhat failed in life, with good attention in the end for some time.
Social "Easter Eggs"
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) is on. The part about reaching in "the chute" was on, and it looked like they swept the issue away from being of interest to younger people and that it was just some sinful adult fun.
People don't realize how bad this movie is because it's actually a big thing the garbage disposable could have been on. People are so busy feeling inferior to the script that they forget that, but other people who are older might more easily remember and promote younger people not "getting it."
People don't realize how bad this movie is because it's actually a big thing the garbage disposable could have been on. People are so busy feeling inferior to the script that they forget that, but other people who are older might more easily remember and promote younger people not "getting it."
Parental People Who Care and Parental People Who Don't Care
Parental people care about kids today for younger generations but not older ones. I was sorta flipped off as selfish.
Life Gone Wrong
I wonder if I'm too "sick," like in the head or something, to see people and have as good a time as I could have had my life been okay.
Only "Worship" the Lord, the "Lamb"
People may not be God, but then the worshiping stops for that regard.
Speculations About Possibilities
It's funny when people think you can take people one at a time and turn them into Barbie dolls and babies forever.
Lots of the Same Problems
I saw a nasty racist on TV in a commercial who hates me just because I'm 1/2 Asian because he was unhappy about how he looked, like I wouldn't like it on him.
Sunday, April 1, 2018
Jesus Christ Superstar Live on Easter
It was great! I didn't expect it to be so good. My favorite part I like to do is the instrumental music.
The War on Racism
The young Ukrainian kids on Little Big Shots with Steve Harvey are hysterical and aghast to Steve Harvey because of his race.
In Pirates of the Caribbean 4, I think an American pirate was mean on purpose to one of the mermaids who was from Spain and affected her sexually.
People go out of their way to insult people who are not all Northern European.
Some Southern Europeans think it is okay to insult people who are not Caucasian.
People think they are cute and are hysterical to be racist, sometimes. It seems like it could be especially true for Eastern Europeans.
I feel discriminated against for who my parents are. There's no "Christina."
On Little Big Shots, the audience is taken aback by the little girl, age 10 tho I thought they said 6, from the Ukraine seems to give the vibe of being a mature older lady European. The US must be having a hard time being European, until they realize what their race is maybe if it's very fair. It just disturbs me. What am I supposed to do if my parents aren't like me? I'm still 1/2 American. I don't really fit in in any group often. I know with Eurasians, they like the ones who are from Europe. Can you believe it? Then, they pick apart your white side for things like less than 1% Jewish.
It might seem weird to talk about this, but I bet people are just waiting to hear, like, a real European say it and somehow make me look bad at the same time.
In Pirates of the Caribbean 4, I think an American pirate was mean on purpose to one of the mermaids who was from Spain and affected her sexually.
People go out of their way to insult people who are not all Northern European.
Some Southern Europeans think it is okay to insult people who are not Caucasian.
People think they are cute and are hysterical to be racist, sometimes. It seems like it could be especially true for Eastern Europeans.
I feel discriminated against for who my parents are. There's no "Christina."
On Little Big Shots, the audience is taken aback by the little girl, age 10 tho I thought they said 6, from the Ukraine seems to give the vibe of being a mature older lady European. The US must be having a hard time being European, until they realize what their race is maybe if it's very fair. It just disturbs me. What am I supposed to do if my parents aren't like me? I'm still 1/2 American. I don't really fit in in any group often. I know with Eurasians, they like the ones who are from Europe. Can you believe it? Then, they pick apart your white side for things like less than 1% Jewish.
It might seem weird to talk about this, but I bet people are just waiting to hear, like, a real European say it and somehow make me look bad at the same time.
"If a feeling happens, I'm right."
I keep feeling like I'm being told I did something wrong and it goes over cuz they went with a feeling tho it's untrue.
Secretly Being Bossed Around
I'm sick of people acting like they are approaching you like you have a serious problem and you should be ashamed.
Secret Message Board - post by me
I'm excited for this. I just never really watch movies now unless I'm at a movie theater. I just don't like watching TV or what's on.
Is anyone watching Jesus Christ Superstar live tonight?
8 PM EST
channel 2 in Orlando
right after Little Big Shots
Jesus is black, John Legend. Let's hope this was the role he was meant to play cuz you know how people who make it big get. I don't know about him but have heard his name.
It looks like a bunch of semi-famous pop singers.
link
So, it's a "concert" of course, like that celebration version of Les Miserables, because it's live. I know most of it.
I must admit if I had small kids, I might not watch it because I'm just less and less excited about some things on TV. I know it's just 2 1/2 hours. I mean, I guess that's not much to ask for such a special event, but I have a feeling a lotta people won't watch. I already have it recorded because it's so important, but I'm not into pop so much. I guess it will be funny and a little on edge.
There should be a time for all things.
I'm interested, but the singing might be more like a pop celebration. If I'm online, I'll probably have it on in the background. I mean, it will be soothing and fun, maybe should get some popcorn. ... I would maybe want to watch a classical orchestra if I liked it a lot. You know, you don't have to feel like you have to watch everything, but consider why it might be interesting to have in the background. I almost feel obliged and am recording tho. It's fun when it's live because you can see how they feel at the same time. I've done this at movie theaters, like for The Nutcracker and tried to get my Tweet posted on the screen, too. If they had like a celebration cast do The Phantom of the Opera... That would probably be popular, too. I don't really watch TV, just in the background or trying to sleep. I gave up on The Voice and American Idol. The people are too sarcastic judging. I like the performances, tho.
Can anyone tell me the nature of the cast?
Is anyone watching Jesus Christ Superstar live tonight?
8 PM EST
channel 2 in Orlando
right after Little Big Shots
Jesus is black, John Legend. Let's hope this was the role he was meant to play cuz you know how people who make it big get. I don't know about him but have heard his name.
It looks like a bunch of semi-famous pop singers.
link
Jesus Christ Superstar Live in Concert - WikipediaIt ends at 10:20 PM.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jesus_Christ_Superstar_Live_in_Concert!
Jump to Casting - John Legend. Sara Bareilles. Brandon Victor Dixon. Alice Cooper. Ben Daniels. Norm Lewis. Jason Tam. Jin Ha.
Brandon Victor Dixon · Ben Daniels · Sara Bareilles · Norm Lewis
So, it's a "concert" of course, like that celebration version of Les Miserables, because it's live. I know most of it.
I must admit if I had small kids, I might not watch it because I'm just less and less excited about some things on TV. I know it's just 2 1/2 hours. I mean, I guess that's not much to ask for such a special event, but I have a feeling a lotta people won't watch. I already have it recorded because it's so important, but I'm not into pop so much. I guess it will be funny and a little on edge.
There should be a time for all things.
I'm interested, but the singing might be more like a pop celebration. If I'm online, I'll probably have it on in the background. I mean, it will be soothing and fun, maybe should get some popcorn. ... I would maybe want to watch a classical orchestra if I liked it a lot. You know, you don't have to feel like you have to watch everything, but consider why it might be interesting to have in the background. I almost feel obliged and am recording tho. It's fun when it's live because you can see how they feel at the same time. I've done this at movie theaters, like for The Nutcracker and tried to get my Tweet posted on the screen, too. If they had like a celebration cast do The Phantom of the Opera... That would probably be popular, too. I don't really watch TV, just in the background or trying to sleep. I gave up on The Voice and American Idol. The people are too sarcastic judging. I like the performances, tho.
Can anyone tell me the nature of the cast?
The Biggest Generation Prejudice
I know that generation prejudice is biggest against me because it's not about everything as much as it is staying away from "1950," which is when my dad was born, and people say they give the men born in 1950 a chance but give the cold shoulder to their kids.
Secret Message Board - post by me
2 Gen Z Girls Who Worked With Drew Barrymore
seemed to both turn out kinda gay
Chloe Grace Moretz born February 1997 stopped being as okay on Twitter and posted weird, uninteresting things, like all she did was Tweet about sports she was watching... and her mom was driving her and she sipped her cup and sounded affected, like she said, "That was something sensitive."
Bella Thorne born October 1997 literally went bi, over the years gradually maybe but in the end did. Anyway, I thought I saw some effect like that.
The funny thing is I was already Tweeting them and knew they'd go gay or bad. I might have even wanted to Tweet it out to Ellen DeGeneres ... guess she's gay, tho. Gay that she thinks it's important to punish younger people and ruin their lives in case someone older than her has an issue after. I think that she was more "self-centered," with her mom setting up her life so she could have white blonde hair, putting her in the sun as a baby and being suggestive. I think she acts like she cares about younger people but things are just too bad for them and kinda lives putting on a show about that. People born when she is get everything. They don't seem to get that they're lucky, some of them, because of things like Ellen DeGeneres getting people slightly younger to listen to her ... take for granted their blessings, like they just happen to be better than people of other generations who are still developing if they ever will reach development.
seemed to both turn out kinda gay
Chloe Grace Moretz born February 1997 stopped being as okay on Twitter and posted weird, uninteresting things, like all she did was Tweet about sports she was watching... and her mom was driving her and she sipped her cup and sounded affected, like she said, "That was something sensitive."
Bella Thorne born October 1997 literally went bi, over the years gradually maybe but in the end did. Anyway, I thought I saw some effect like that.
The funny thing is I was already Tweeting them and knew they'd go gay or bad. I might have even wanted to Tweet it out to Ellen DeGeneres ... guess she's gay, tho. Gay that she thinks it's important to punish younger people and ruin their lives in case someone older than her has an issue after. I think that she was more "self-centered," with her mom setting up her life so she could have white blonde hair, putting her in the sun as a baby and being suggestive. I think she acts like she cares about younger people but things are just too bad for them and kinda lives putting on a show about that. People born when she is get everything. They don't seem to get that they're lucky, some of them, because of things like Ellen DeGeneres getting people slightly younger to listen to her ... take for granted their blessings, like they just happen to be better than people of other generations who are still developing if they ever will reach development.
Being Ready?
What's wrong with being ready for something? Is the world, sometimes, just a fight on who had to go to daycare?
On Schedule
It's like I'm kept on schedule so I don't feel like doing anything or that anything is happening "in my world."
I didn't do anything wrong.
I didn't do anything wrong.
cont.
...and even in my normal life when good things happened feel knocked down by pressure that I'm bad or people who are mean to me "know."
Steps That Led to No Product
What do you think of kids who are treated like they are more important, like only they get that extra touch of love tho they don't seem to do what you have to do even to deserve it? I mean, people keep getting away with acting like I'm in trouble with them and can't get away, like often or sometimes it seems it starts for the way I feel I dislike how they treat me.
Question
Do you ever use how you think about yourself to feel good? Like that people around you aren't crazy concerning you?
People Peculiarities
You know how you were growing up and you were with your family and you were allowed to meet friends and visited relatives? and at 18 it's out? Well, now, everyone is onto my private life. I'm not particularly "clingy" about my family and people. Also, I feel people get themselves trained to be a certain way around me and me to look unappealing tho well-behaved and nice. That doesn't sound good for my future, neither. People actually went back and think since they think I did something they found wrong that they can do things like say people I know thru family ties or as friends are better and I'm just a nuisance to them, that I'm just a happy person to know them but not really anything, like that's possible. Most people I know have certain ways that make them look like a certain kind of person, and I've known people to act like they're certain "characters" like in a book, with very individual features. A lot of these ways of looking don't seem like an ideal in ways to people, tho.
Feeling Cool
Other people do stuff like go online and they feel cool. I have to worry about people monitoring me in private, saying I'm in trouble and being sore.
Trapped
I noticed I'm trapped for no reason like I can't think outside the box while the rest of the world is out making merry. I feel trapped by individuals sometimes, when I'm just living with my parents in their garage cuz I couldn't finish college, yet...
Lots of Condescendence
Rather than having me be, people want me to feel taken aback like I'm inferior. I already am considerate. I do go thru thought processes for things. It's really ridiculous that people would actually approach me like that all the time, like it's natural. What do you think I am? To counter this is a life mission of mine I already am following thru with.
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