Sunday, March 25, 2018
"Ring Around the Rosy"
Even if it's about making something easier for me and harder for someone else, in the end, it's to never let me have it as good as I had and could have.
Tricksy
I wonder why someone I know is such a joker in wit, sometimes okay, sometimes not, and people pay attention because I'm a mixed race relationship who has/had good relationships outside of my family, to ruin my life.
"No Child Left Behind"
People are not usually mean to families like mine with a good kid with a somewhat good life. Everyone is just complaining about families who didn't have a chance for whatever secret reason. They are mean to me, tho, because I'm pretty successful with a moral life and broke thru racial hardships.
Handing Feelings Right
You know how different places are different?
The holy people in the Northern Midwest sound like a party of love, whereas other places practice keeping things too unfeeling and pointless. The people who have a party of love are still spot on, but the people who are unfeeling and pointless aren't.
The holy people in the Northern Midwest sound like a party of love, whereas other places practice keeping things too unfeeling and pointless. The people who have a party of love are still spot on, but the people who are unfeeling and pointless aren't.
Different Cultures
Do you know the feeling people get when they see another culture in another part of the US get ahead and they think, "Weren't we, like, supposed to wait and do it together?" Actually, it means they didn't also let someone be who they want to be.
My Lifestyle
Should I just turn in because I wasn't always perfect in later years but not mean ... and people see me as bad still? I just don't see how I can feel good. I kind of have but hope to go on in college again, starting at a community college but not taking the general studies maybe.
Question for My Dad & Aunt (His Older Younger Sister)
How do you feel about me? I grew up being told I was well-behaved all the time. If you knew in private that I had fits when upset, would you consider me less as a person?
I wonder if us talking about it will irritate others who act like they profess otherwise. They think I'm inferior racially. That's their excuse to be how they are to me.
Also, if I have some difficulty adapting handling people who are mean to me who won't stop even when they know I want them to know I feel bad and to just stop whatever it is then and maybe have to go away for then at least, would you think I was mentally ill?
I'm guessing you don't have this problem because you don't have people who base their life on hurting you for your race, tho I grew up as a normal kid. I feel I am tossed away as trash, if I seem inferior because of other hardships but discriminated because of mixed race.
Just know I don't want to bother people nor act too crazy in private ever. For instance, I seemed better and felt like celebrating, tho others still don't accept me for my past. Anyway, it got a bit worse. I kept posting how upset I was and wanted it to stop, like I said in these cases sometimes, but after I was at my wit's end posting how miserable I was over and over, people continued to say the same things. I was mad physically then. It's because I was trying to post my problems and was so tired and they wouldn't quit. I cared what they said because they can affect my life a lot. It's a secret. I can blame those people and someone else I won't name for starting to irritate me when things were fine and I knew I needed to feel better somehow because of my past bothering me. Then, I got upset gradually more and more.
I wonder if us talking about it will irritate others who act like they profess otherwise. They think I'm inferior racially. That's their excuse to be how they are to me.
Also, if I have some difficulty adapting handling people who are mean to me who won't stop even when they know I want them to know I feel bad and to just stop whatever it is then and maybe have to go away for then at least, would you think I was mentally ill?
I'm guessing you don't have this problem because you don't have people who base their life on hurting you for your race, tho I grew up as a normal kid. I feel I am tossed away as trash, if I seem inferior because of other hardships but discriminated because of mixed race.
Just know I don't want to bother people nor act too crazy in private ever. For instance, I seemed better and felt like celebrating, tho others still don't accept me for my past. Anyway, it got a bit worse. I kept posting how upset I was and wanted it to stop, like I said in these cases sometimes, but after I was at my wit's end posting how miserable I was over and over, people continued to say the same things. I was mad physically then. It's because I was trying to post my problems and was so tired and they wouldn't quit. I cared what they said because they can affect my life a lot. It's a secret. I can blame those people and someone else I won't name for starting to irritate me when things were fine and I knew I needed to feel better somehow because of my past bothering me. Then, I got upset gradually more and more.
Making Up Social Rules for Some
Did you know Late Boomers make up social rules against you to look good because they get whatever they want?
"Not 'the One'"
Some people keep joking I'm "not the one." However, they like to make other people "the ones."
Examples of Believing in Lying
People tell me someone in my life is the ideal, tho they don't look very symmetrical and skinny; they are obese and look atypical in shape. However, I don't see them doing that to Generation Z (people born around 1997/1998.)
People calmly suggest an older lady I know might die, like they are smirking, settled, because it's not their "relationship" and they think I have to be in trouble with other people when I'm not. They think that the whole world thinking of them all the time for over a year is why and they don't care and think it's funny.
People calmly suggest an older lady I know might die, like they are smirking, settled, because it's not their "relationship" and they think I have to be in trouble with other people when I'm not. They think that the whole world thinking of them all the time for over a year is why and they don't care and think it's funny.
"...and I'm proud to be an American, where at least..."
Why are Americans so dirty, worn out, and monotonous?
"Rock Paper Scissors ... Shoot!"
People like to shock you with decision-needing messages to confuse you and read an inner reaction so they can pretend it was a bad one and now everything's okay because they think they just proved you wrong and therefore them right.
A New Favorite to All
It's not just a competition to Late Boomers. It's just an excuse made up for real problems that exist between all. If you wanna be a kid, you should still do it, at least on the inside.
Suffering from Abuse
It seems like because people fooled me and mistreated me as a young person that I'm unfairly trash to everyone now. Like, school was just a 3-ring-circus providing things like busywork at home. I'm not smart like I should be. I somehow never did violin when I was younger.
Attempts at Evening out Among Peers
If you do what you're supposed to and at school, life should get better, but it doesn't because the people who didn't do it have more energy later and the people who did it are on a different "biological clock." In the end, the ones who have a better life are the people who were bad as kids. I know people are mad at me and want the supposed "bad" people to be seem as not as equals but "better" than me. They make excuses saying I'm not perfect or include something about me racially. I don't want to sacrifice myself as a person because bad kids just feel like saying I can't be as good as they are.
"The Big Easy"
I notice people are laid back and don't take charge of anything in the situation for me.
People are too stubborn to care about me if I need them in a situation or "group 'activity.'"
People are too stubborn to care about me if I need them in a situation or "group 'activity.'"
Sad About Family
It seems family is all about younger people who had kids in a rush.
My family seems like it's depressing sometimes.
Relatives are nice, but it can get in the way because then you don't "have" to go on and meet other people. My aunt has some nice in-laws. I didn't see my relatives much and ended up losing my relationship with my relatives, moreso.
I don't want to copy supposed "trashy" families and just forget about life. People copy supposedly "trashy" people to say they handled it.
I also don't like how people try to get back at family members. I don't like how people are at me for what I post online, neither, because I'm me and I don't belong to anyone else. They're still fighting it with what energy they have for whatever reason because I don't have it and they're responsible and don't want to admit it to the world, very scared of that. They just want the glamour life now. There's no essence. They've "retired" from it all.
My family seems like it's depressing sometimes.
Relatives are nice, but it can get in the way because then you don't "have" to go on and meet other people. My aunt has some nice in-laws. I didn't see my relatives much and ended up losing my relationship with my relatives, moreso.
I don't want to copy supposed "trashy" families and just forget about life. People copy supposedly "trashy" people to say they handled it.
I also don't like how people try to get back at family members. I don't like how people are at me for what I post online, neither, because I'm me and I don't belong to anyone else. They're still fighting it with what energy they have for whatever reason because I don't have it and they're responsible and don't want to admit it to the world, very scared of that. They just want the glamour life now. There's no essence. They've "retired" from it all.
Overly Complimenting Me to Blaring at Me I'm Not All That
Why do people find wrong in me? It's ridiculous. I used to be told I was very good, out of nowhere. Because I was told that, people told me the opposite later. Different people said it who don't know each other. They just didn't feel I knew what my problems were. That's all I seem to get.
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