Monday, April 2, 2018
1992/1993/1994 - When Time and Hollywood Stood Still
You knew you had something good in the kids then, who were born around 1983-1985.
Community College
I signed up for Music Appreciation Monday-Thursday and for a nutrition class that is only offered online, for the summer.
Orlando & Community College
Too much of this place just wants to do whatever hurts me in sneaky ways thy find successful and an accomplishment.
My life should change soon. I hope to take Music Appreciation at a community college in the summer and major in music in the fall, on violin, which they said they even take beginners. I am looking forward to being good at music in the Music Appreciation.
In a Blah Mood
Do most people hate what they eat?
I just have to finish up some things so I can get something else.
I just have to finish up some things so I can get something else.
Racist or Not Racist, That Is the Question
So, my dad and grandma aren't racist.
My dad seems to see me as different in minute sorta ways.
My grandma can't seem to grasp the idea it's okay I exist, in some ways.
My dad seems to see me as different in minute sorta ways.
My grandma can't seem to grasp the idea it's okay I exist, in some ways.
What do you think I am?
People keep acting like they're better and startle me when I'm happy going about my business.
Scapegoat
People I know and some strangers are conceited and out-of-place, around me, think I don't care and their life is unfair and see me singled out from others as a target and place to take out their anger on.
Orlando
Orlando ruined it for me.
Supposedly, a singing class teacher I had was monitoring me in private, and it turned into something bigger.
We ended up leaving New Orleans and moving to Orlando, and I got torn apart and beaten up.
I'm worried I cannot stop this no matter where I go.
Supposedly, a singing class teacher I had was monitoring me in private, and it turned into something bigger.
We ended up leaving New Orleans and moving to Orlando, and I got torn apart and beaten up.
I'm worried I cannot stop this no matter where I go.
What all is the matter?
Howcome all of a sudden, people turn me down? I had a hard time in my life, and then people stopped liking me and it got worse. I thought I could get better. I feel hurt by some people.
People won't stop not accepting me because of how I am in relation to my parents, and it's a lie, I think, tho they keep giving me the feedback. It's one of those things you develop and learn. It's sensitive. I'm probably waiting for my turn to do something again. I know I am capable of doing things.
Disgrace-ness Development
Since when am I a disgrace? It looks bad like people want to do away with me. People don't know about the real me.
Secret Message Board - post by me
...who appears thru this video is overrated? If you want to skip to her talking, then go to 4:02.
I posted nice things about her online and other things to the orchestra and have been blocked by them for no reason and had to get a new account just to follow and not talk much at all. They could have just told me. I know no one really hangs around there online, but they refused to have a conversation with me, like there's something wrong with me.
The Germans are interesting and remind me of an English girl poster on here. They seem to have it all, like they don't have to be nice to you and can still get what they want.
Also, people are secretly accusing me of wishing to meet people in the classical music field because it's my major in college and has been since the beginning mostly, tho I'm on a long sabbatical. My dad has gotten himself involved in private and everything. That doesn't make me feel good. Same with his older younger sister in strange ways. I might have had to go with the flow, but it is what it is. I better spill the beans and let you know they probably came in contact with people I find online or in real life. It's like it's ruined for me.
Back to the German lady. She is the one with brown hair in this video that comes up first for maybe Bach's most famous/pretty song, 2014. Someone posted it maybe in 2007 or something, tho, too.
It seems like if one person talks to her, everyone gets even more interested, or maybe she's due to be the next Yo Yo Ma since violin is what she does, or maybe she'd be a good film star in the US?
People need to be more Christian in their take on her because, sad to say, they probably aren't likable how they are. It's kinda disturbed me, and I didn't know she liked it. It might even have caused her to feel bad, if that's possible cuz it might be hard to be treated a certain way.
Anyway, what do you all think of the German lady, Petra Müllejans?
I posted nice things about her online and other things to the orchestra and have been blocked by them for no reason and had to get a new account just to follow and not talk much at all. They could have just told me. I know no one really hangs around there online, but they refused to have a conversation with me, like there's something wrong with me.
The Germans are interesting and remind me of an English girl poster on here. They seem to have it all, like they don't have to be nice to you and can still get what they want.
Also, people are secretly accusing me of wishing to meet people in the classical music field because it's my major in college and has been since the beginning mostly, tho I'm on a long sabbatical. My dad has gotten himself involved in private and everything. That doesn't make me feel good. Same with his older younger sister in strange ways. I might have had to go with the flow, but it is what it is. I better spill the beans and let you know they probably came in contact with people I find online or in real life. It's like it's ruined for me.
Back to the German lady. She is the one with brown hair in this video that comes up first for maybe Bach's most famous/pretty song, 2014. Someone posted it maybe in 2007 or something, tho, too.
It seems like if one person talks to her, everyone gets even more interested, or maybe she's due to be the next Yo Yo Ma since violin is what she does, or maybe she'd be a good film star in the US?
People need to be more Christian in their take on her because, sad to say, they probably aren't likable how they are. It's kinda disturbed me, and I didn't know she liked it. It might even have caused her to feel bad, if that's possible cuz it might be hard to be treated a certain way.
Anyway, what do you all think of the German lady, Petra Müllejans?
Dinosaurs
I think people are setting me up pretending to like only me, like everyone else has a problem, because I really was attracted to them, like younger girls. I know. They need to stop being so picky about opportunities to stay good and get better, like being worth to do it. People who aren't pretty like dolls probably all questioned them and attacked because they were jealous. It's a mystery no one knows, like why the dinosaurs all died out.
Trying to Solve My Mystery in a Social Jail
People think I have to want to be a certain way, a way that is not well-accepted socially.
It seems a little funny because I kinda made myself to be the best of both my parents. I'm not happy to know if I messed up. Some things were out of my control, so maybe it has a domino effect, like staying up late to do homework made me look shorter than I wanted.
I don't really barge in on other people, but I feel people are telling me I do. When I meet someone, it's already over. People around me act like they don't know how I started to get some kind of attention from anyone, to begin with, but they already want to rat me out, like there's some obvious reason. It's very silly and superstitious and criminal, extreme social mistreatment in sneaky ways.
So, what is wrong with what I am like when you come to know what my parents are like, in some ways? I don't think I'm often that violent, tho I'm not used to people giving me attention and going thru with telling me they think I did something wrong in getting attention. Why can't I get by sometimes? I mean, if someone wants to communicate with me, it doesn't mean I did something wrong. It also doesn't mean I don't want to communicate with anyone at all and like to communicate on what I like, which is disagreeable to some people.
I wonder if people dislike me because I am different form them in supposedly important ways and aren't interested cuz "there's nothing in it."
I figured out that it's about people who are younger than me with younger dads. People who are attractive participate in their life like they are really living life out with them. With me, it's about telling me I'm right that I should do what I'm supposed to but I'm bad because they don't want to admit I'm attractive and they make me feel like my soul is sucked out. Life is not all that romantic after all, filled with limitations and being tracked and mistreated. I thought life became about greater things for me. I'm me. I liked art a lot since I was 2 or 3, so I must like attractive things! I'm not some mole in a hole socially.
It seems a little funny because I kinda made myself to be the best of both my parents. I'm not happy to know if I messed up. Some things were out of my control, so maybe it has a domino effect, like staying up late to do homework made me look shorter than I wanted.
I don't really barge in on other people, but I feel people are telling me I do. When I meet someone, it's already over. People around me act like they don't know how I started to get some kind of attention from anyone, to begin with, but they already want to rat me out, like there's some obvious reason. It's very silly and superstitious and criminal, extreme social mistreatment in sneaky ways.
So, what is wrong with what I am like when you come to know what my parents are like, in some ways? I don't think I'm often that violent, tho I'm not used to people giving me attention and going thru with telling me they think I did something wrong in getting attention. Why can't I get by sometimes? I mean, if someone wants to communicate with me, it doesn't mean I did something wrong. It also doesn't mean I don't want to communicate with anyone at all and like to communicate on what I like, which is disagreeable to some people.
I wonder if people dislike me because I am different form them in supposedly important ways and aren't interested cuz "there's nothing in it."
I figured out that it's about people who are younger than me with younger dads. People who are attractive participate in their life like they are really living life out with them. With me, it's about telling me I'm right that I should do what I'm supposed to but I'm bad because they don't want to admit I'm attractive and they make me feel like my soul is sucked out. Life is not all that romantic after all, filled with limitations and being tracked and mistreated. I thought life became about greater things for me. I'm me. I liked art a lot since I was 2 or 3, so I must like attractive things! I'm not some mole in a hole socially.
"Mike TV"
I guess people born after Late Boom will be like little Mike TV, too small to feel anything or too small of a heart. It's supposedly the one big problem.
Getting Strong Attention
What if some people, like kids, feel attention more, in some natural way that even prejudiced people care about? Or is it just more sex? I wonder what happened to people my age, now, because they supposedly excelled while I somewhat failed in life, with good attention in the end for some time.
Social "Easter Eggs"
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) is on. The part about reaching in "the chute" was on, and it looked like they swept the issue away from being of interest to younger people and that it was just some sinful adult fun.
People don't realize how bad this movie is because it's actually a big thing the garbage disposable could have been on. People are so busy feeling inferior to the script that they forget that, but other people who are older might more easily remember and promote younger people not "getting it."
People don't realize how bad this movie is because it's actually a big thing the garbage disposable could have been on. People are so busy feeling inferior to the script that they forget that, but other people who are older might more easily remember and promote younger people not "getting it."
Parental People Who Care and Parental People Who Don't Care
Parental people care about kids today for younger generations but not older ones. I was sorta flipped off as selfish.
Life Gone Wrong
I wonder if I'm too "sick," like in the head or something, to see people and have as good a time as I could have had my life been okay.
Only "Worship" the Lord, the "Lamb"
People may not be God, but then the worshiping stops for that regard.
Speculations About Possibilities
It's funny when people think you can take people one at a time and turn them into Barbie dolls and babies forever.
Lots of the Same Problems
I saw a nasty racist on TV in a commercial who hates me just because I'm 1/2 Asian because he was unhappy about how he looked, like I wouldn't like it on him.
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