People ruined my life and acted like I have a problem, like I keep getting rubbed in when convenient that I'm unattractive and ugly and an unpleasant person in what I do and decide and come across as. They just don't give me the time of day but to make fun of me or give me bad news with a smile. They single me out as bad.
I know some people think that if you're not skinny that you're just stupid, unless they look like your mother.
I feel people are personally prejudiced against me and like to ruin older people I like/know.
They often pretend I am a bad person, too.
People say because people used to like me and be nice to me and even do things for me that I'm just a bad person and not the one who complimented myself and did nice things. So, they're saying I'm worthless. They themselves probably don't do things for anyone unless to attract a date or spouse.
They keep thinking that that did it and that I believe them.
They were told bad things about me and were threatened to do this, but maybe not everyone does it. So, they must have drawn different conclusions.
No one seems to care about what I do, and my personal life gets messed up. It's boring, in that way.
They think they have bait on me because I met people I liked and they're always messing with those relationships, saying if I am upset they are mean to me I am bad. If I get upset physically in any way and even in private, they threaten my current or future relationships. People like to edge me on, too, and make it look worse. They are playing around with me, worsening my relationships like I won't have them good anymore and I often suffer things to do with it being threatened, like I need it and from my parents who I live with.
I am a bit fed up about my personal life, but I also wanted to highlight for interest's sake how everyone treats me and others.
I see other people where I live get away with living their lives.
It's important that so many people keep treating me like I'm nothing when, it seems in some ways, when it gets in my personal life and I sometimes get bothered about it if I accidentally think of a bad word or something. I get that I'm nothing sometimes and can't insist some people talk to me. So, I'm posting about it, here.
Do you think I am being trapped from having a good life like I earned before?
So, I guess I seem to be being confrontational about all the people who think I'm nothing because I'm mixed race.
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