Here is an excerpt from a post I just made. I talk more directly here because it's in public and someone I know. It hits more than one unique and important point.
I guess people can be conformists sometimes and not make sense these days. That's making things into trouble. I almost don't trust it here. I don't know if I can trust anyone other than lucky exchanges, like with strangers. ... I feel that it wouldn't matter how they are to me in some ways if people didn't influence them to talk to me, tho I suppose some people a lotta people are just mutually interested in, for whatever removed reason to add to the situation. I guess I'm kinda being cornered and going thru something, to be honest. I'm afraid I'll just keep getting fought and accused for my reaction and how I am seen to act and react. I want to know why people have rounded up against me and see me as fake, and all of a sudden people think they're more authentic than me, like they "have to have it." This isn't fair and doesn't make sense. The body is a temple. Why can't I ever get what I've earned? I must have gotten mad more than most people for how I'm mistreated. Things were getting better, too.
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